So, I have to admit something.

Right at this time, this moment in time, my life is........ going really well. Weird, right?

I mean, I've been getting A's on tests and essays and all of my classes are turning out really well no matter what gets thrown at me. For the first time in my college career, I feel like I'm having no trouble at all.

And what's more, my personal life is going great, too. I auditioned for a play that my theater program was doing and I got a part. A minor part, mind you, but still a part. Even better, I was told yesterday that I made it into my college's improv comedy show, something I have been gunning for all year. Despite the fact that I have a pretty bad infection of a certain organ in my body right now, my life is kicking some serious ass.

Thing is, though, I still have this weird feeling. A feeling like maybe I haven't done it all the right way. Like, a paranoia, you know? I constantly second guess my own abilities and talents to a degree that it's saddening. And even though my friends tell me that I'm really great and stuff, I don't trust them. That may sound odd, but it's the truth. I have no trust in what they tell me because I think they might be lying.

What if they're fucking with me? What if I'm really no good? What if they're not really my friends? Maybe this is some sick joke. This sounds really crazy and involved, but it's what I think. And even though I realize that my theories are completely retarded and make no sense, I still believe them. I think I need help.